Lyrics stream through my mind tonight…a song that comes when things seem like they are unraveling: “You are stronger, You are stronger, sin is broken, You have saved me, it is written, Christ is risen, You are Lord, Lord of all.”
My memory of the last time that song went through my mind is not a pleasant one. It was through tears and knowing that every effort as a church leader to keep the church I knew together was going to fail. It was recognizing that I was going to be torn away from people I cared for. It was an admittance to my God that I knew He was stronger than everything that was happening. It was my heart cry for purpose behind all the change.
This past Sunday, at Orchard Hill, the phrase “He must increase, I must decrease” was stated within the sermon. It forced me to look up the exact wording in the Bible because I do think the order of how it is written has value. It made me reflect on the last few years and while I have heard the phrase before, I heard it new because I have literally had everything that I held dear in terms of my spiritual walk and ministry stripped away from me. However, even though I struggle to make sense of it all and most likely will never understand the events, I am seeking Him more. I do see that over the last year and a half, God has provided for me over and over. He has placed me in the right place at the right time to meet the right person for spiritual encouragement. He will receive the glory and not I. He has proven to me over and over that He redeems. That word has become one of my favorites recently. He is stronger. He is Lord of all. I just am taking this moment to lean into Him a little closer and appreciate his sacrifice. He died so that I might live. I pray that I can surrender it all (make things less about me) that He be glorified.
He must increase, but I must decrease.