What does my story mean to me?

“The story will be told in the changed lives of people.”~Orchard Hill Church

My last three posts included my story. Like it or not. I cannot capture everything. I left out some recent stuff knowing I have mentioned it in this blog. I know I still hide details of the wrong I did. Even reading my story, I think to myself “did you really not understand what you were doing and didn’t you like having power over people in certain situations?” I don’t want to think that I ever set out to hurt people on purpose but I was selfish and I can still choose to be self serving even now. So, what does it all mean? I believe that the story means everything because if I didn’t screw up my life along the way then I wouldn’t need a Savior. However, I know it doesn’t matter what I have done or didn’t do…it doesn’t matter what I will do this year or the next. I accepted Jesus as my Savior so I am free. It isn’t freedom in the sense that I can do whatever I want…it means that what held me away from God does not hold me anymore. I want to live my life and make choices that honor God. When I was growing up, my parents instilled a heritage in me that because I had my family’s name, it was an expectation to act a certain way. When I send my kids out into the world, I remind them that their actions should reflect God’s holy name. I tell myself this too. My life has changed because of what Christ has done. My story is how I can tell His story.

This is what I have learned so far:
I learned to be still and know. Psalm 46:10
I learned to trust God. Proverbs 3:5-6
I learned that my security is in Jesus. Romans 8:35-39, Philippians 1:6
I learned that my identity is found in Christ. John 1:12, Romans 6:6
I learned that I am a new creation. 2 Corinthians 5:17
I learned that I am God’s masterpiece. Ephesians 2:10
I learned that God had a plan for my life even as He was knitting me together in my mother’s womb. Jeremiah 29:11, Psalm 139
I learned that Satan came to kill, steal, and destroy. John 10:10
I learned that He who is in me is greater than He who is in the world. 1 John 4:4
I learned that Jesus overcame the world. John 16:33
I learned that God is with me and He will not leave me. Deuteronomy 31:6,8
I learned that if I seek Him, I will find Him. Deuteronomy 4:29
I learned that His grace is sufficient and my sins are as far as the east is from the west. 2 Corinthians 12:9, Psalm 103:12
I learned how deep the Father loves me. Ephesians 3:18, 1 John 3, John 3:16
I learned that I can’t do it perfectly…I do the things I don’t want to do and I don’t do the things I should. Romans 7:15-19

God will use you if you are willing to follow Him. I never saw myself good enough to lead a Bible study or lead a teacher’s prayer group in a public school. I never thought I’d teach Sunday School or sing in front of a church. I never thought some of my story would be published in a book or that I would be able to encourage other people in their walk with Christ. But, God uses me time and time again and I am the one who benefits the most. I learn from each experience more about who I am in Christ and more about His character. God is so good, He’s so good to me. I am glad He isn’t done with me yet.

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