trust All of the following statements show faith…courage…trust in God. No matter who you are, God wants you to trust Him because He holds what is best for you…He holds you. These statements are reflections of me. The thoughts that echo deep into my heart and run rampant through my mind. Praise the Lord that He has a “then” for my “when”!

When I feel like I am the sum total of past mistakes, then I will trust God to continue what He started for I am a new creation. 2 Corinthians 5:17

When I feel unworthy, then I will be reminded that my worth is in Him alone. Luke 12:7

When I feel like a failure, then God says He holds success. Proverbs 2:7 

When I think “life is too hard” and I want to give up, I will persevere through Christ who strengthens me. Romans 5:4 Philippians 4:13

When I find myself doubting my purpose, then God shows me that it is His purpose that matters and I don’t have to KNOW everything. Romans 8:28.

When I am less than perfect in my actions and reactions, then I will remember His grace is sufficient. 2 Corinthians 12:9

When I lose a “battle”, then I will hear Him say that He has overcome the world. John 16:33

When my heart is breaking, then He comforts me. Matthew 5:4

When I am overwhelmed, then He calms the storm and reminds me to be still. Psalm 46:10 Mark 4:39

When I fear, then I will focus on the One who said do not be afraid. Joshua 1:9 John 14:27

When I lose control and everything seems to be falling apart, then I will be thankful that God is in control and my life is in His hands. Revelation 1:8

When I hate my feelings, my body, my thoughts, then I will take captive all negative thoughts and surrender them to the One who created me. 2 Corinthians 10:5 Psalm 139:13-14


Perfect love. Can it even possibly exist? To me, perfect love is a love so strong that despite my sin and my foolishness He died for me. He knew who I was and what I am and what I will be. Without His perfect love, I am nothing. He completes me. He makes me whole. He sees me differently than I see myself. He knows my path and He gives me purpose to live. Perfect love=JESUS.
My story is probably like most…riddled with bad choices and heartache. I tried to fill my emptiness with trying to be the perfect Christian….following a list of rules. But I failed. Time and time again, I failed.
Recently, I discovered that I was holding onto my past. I was reminded of an emotional affair, of choices made in anger, of how I could never be good enough. I fell into a cycle of bitterness and self contempt. Desperate for answers, I begged God to answer me and He met me. He asked me to trust again. I began to call on Him more often and to seek Him in my life. I felt forgiveness. I tasted grace. His mercies are new every morning. I learned that through Jesus, I can be more. I can live for Him. I am still learning to be obedient and to surrender fully. I still struggle with thoughts that can only be explained as an enemy’s attempt to shake me so that I am ineffective. I refuse to be ineffective. He has given me hope and purpose. Pushing aside myself to embrace more of what He offers…yes. That is the only way I want to be found…found in Him. In His perfect love.