Follow your dreams…unlock the dreams of your heart…dare to dream…reach your dreams…live your dreams…I have a dream…
Have you ever really thought about the word dream? It holds promise…hope for something of the future. It unleashes a wild imagining. It is fantasy not yet a reality.
In my case, I have felt an anxiousness during some dreams to stay asleep to see the outcome…to hold on and not feel disappointed when awake…searching for answers. Then, there is the creepy deja vu moment where you speak the words you know you have heard before and the story playing out before you as reality is all too familiar. Sadly, I often dream dreams that are reminders of the sin in my past.
God created us and therefore He must have created in us the ability to dream–both hoping for something in the future and seeing a story in our sleep. I believe that God has perfect timing. My dreams of my past have prompted me to have such angst that I had to seek a closer walk with Jesus. I had to trust Him to show me the way. His way spoke of repentance and being bold enough to seek forgiveness and also forgive. The dreams have served as warnings to beware of trouble or danger. Sometimes, they are so vivid.
Last night, I had such a dream where I attended a meeting. The place was odd, the people in attendance were even stranger, the topic is something I am looking forward to this week and made it seem real. As the dream advanced, there were refreshments after the meeting and I had feelings…awkward and distancing myself from the crowd, ignoring the encouragement to eat, I wandered away thinking about the season and time…why is it summer and we were celebrating a New Year? I came to the top of a set of wooden steps and paused to fix my sandal and as I looked up, a man was walking up the steps toward me. Not just any man…this man is the one I had hurt and I felt my own hurt rush over me. He smiled and I stood still, suddenly feeling very self conscious. I smiled as I realized that I was no longer an insecure young woman. I looked him in the eye and saw him as created by God. This man’s purpose in my life stood before me and I was thankful for the pain because I came to know Jesus so much more. We talked about small stuff but underlying such conversation was the fact that forgiveness was present and God reigns in the past, present, and future. I got the distinct impression that there was even more purpose in the present because we both had overcome Satan’s lies and sought healing from our Savior.
As I remember my dream today, my heart is warm and I know I can be strong no matter what I face because God is with me. I prayed for the man to hold Christ closer to his heart and for him to know God’s will in his life…to take courage in the healing and forgiveness. Lastly, I smile as I discovered that my past doesn’t define who I am…God defines who I am.
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. Ephesians 3:20-21